As everyone knows - I’m can be moody. I’m moody right now and I’ve decided that it’s because I’m not content.

I’m not really sure why I’m not content. I have a good life, a good family, a good job and don’t want for anything. In essence - I’m one blessed Texan.

So why the lack of contentment? I think it’s because I can’t have what I want. We all have our desires and I think that it’s when we let our desires take control that our life seems to spin out of control and we begin to experience that all too aggrivating sense of ennui.

Am I saying that self-control equals contentment? I don’t think it’s quite that simple. Perhaps it’s more an accurate to say that if you can maintain some semblance of self-control you can somehow adjust your focus on not what you want (some future accomplishment - say a move to Texas) but on the now. We don’t say that we will be content or even that we were contented, but that we are content, thus it really boils down to the now and appreciating the moment.

It could be that this general malaise is stemming from simply not being at home. It could be that I am just looking forward to R&R in a very congitative OMD sort of way. Or it could be that I just need a pinch, a coke and a 0200 walk to McDonalds to cogitate on the McUniverse.

Since there is no McDonalds or a person with whom to walk I think I’ll just have a pinch and a coke.

Mmmmm. I’m content now.

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